Perchance it is the abruptly chilling weather that has numbed my mind to the extent that I cannot even gather the slightest bit of strength to do something out of the ordinary. Or it could be the sudden influx of extracurricular activities, homework, and homework from extracurricular activities that consumed my cognition. Or is it oppression? Bad luck? What?

I get up rather early in the morning each day, before the sun rises (even in the summer.) On weekends and during vacation I go to the gym, and on school days I study, read the newspaper, and write out my plans for the day on a spreadsheet.

Theoretically, the school day as a mere eighth grader should be neither tiring nor taxing. And it isn't. I go to school, return home, then leave for either badminton practice or dance (depending on the day), and return home sometime later in the evening. Then I proceed to finish my schoolwork and watch the news if I have time.

Why is it that I can't find time to squeeze a tad bit more into my schedule? Better phrasing would be "What about everything else I need to do?"

What about art? What about reading those encyclopedias I bought but never had time to flip through? What about shopping? I promised myself that I'd look for some new flannel shirts and shoes that week for the past three weeks. Why haven't I gone yet?

I'm not the type to waste time, although I am online almost all the time. No, I'm burning my life at the hands of the 3G Network from my wireless carrier. AT&T has less coverage anyway. Don't have internet as part of my data plan. Unlimited texting, yes. But I swear I don't spend more than a few texts every day. I mostly just turn on my Mac once I'm home, sign on everything, then just desert it.

Weekends are somewhat better. I get to spend more time at the gym, which really wakes me up for the rest of the day. I do some practice SATs, read some books as I am doing now, then do some schoolwork. Sometimes I go out during the day, although I don't wholly have the time to go on entire-day mall excursions like I did in the summer with friends.

And to the last question, why am I such a nerd?

The world may never know.